Some first draft meditations from tonight.

Below are some meditations from tonight that will need to be developed over time. They may or may not make sense to anyone but I see them as seeds being planted into me. We shall see what they will grow into. If any of them plant themselves into you, please let me know. This could totally be just for me, though, and that is okay.

You want me to know the power of the resurrection. In it is everything and it is where we find You.

You want us to first trust You and then continue trusting You and live accordingly. This would resemble living with all our heart, soul and mind in this belief. This belief makes You very excited. Living confidently is fully trusting.

Knowing You is what You want. You want us to know You and this takes place within the resurrection power. You wanting us to know You is profoundly spectacular!

When we close our eyes and completely balance ourselves, You (Jesus) will greet us. When we open our eyes, You will walk with us.

The reason that You want us to prophesy more than anything else is because it requires us listening to You far more than it requires us talking. The energy required to listen to You is found solely in the resurrection power. Living out prophesy is living out all the gifts. Not just speaking as a prophet but also living like a prophet. A prophet is alive to You. This is not some freaky religious person, this is someone that believes in all the life of Jesus and through that is awakened to You and comes alive on this earth. Very natural looking except it looks foreign to those that are not awake.

When a person has entered into this awakening something strange and life altering begins to take place. This world becomes a cocoon. It is very much resembles a caterpillar. Born and living yet it knows that something far greater lies ahead, doesn’t really know what it is though. This is a person that is not awake on this earth. They know that there is something but really have no idea how crazy it could be. Until the caterpillar decides to enter its cocoon it cannot see what lies ahead. The person that begins to trust that Jesus is still alive enters the cocoon. This earth is no longer the same. It becomes a place of transformation and change and that is all that it is. This life, my life, is life that is in the cocoon. There is something major happening. There is a transformation taking place and as long as I am alive, I am in the cocoon. The day that caterpillar’s cocoon breaks open is the day that it ceases to be a caterpillar and is now what it was meant to be. The day that this cocoon breaks is the day that I become what I was meant to be and live as I am meant to live. This earth is a cocoon to those that are awake. We are surrounded by those that do not know we are in one. If a caterpillar refuses to build a cocoon, it will never know what it was meant to be. It might look at a butterfly and say, that would be so amazing to fly, not realizing it is meant to fly. Those who are not awake have no idea that we who alive are now living, as if, in a cocoon. This is where all the change is going down. We are being morphed. It is as dramatic as a worm to a butterfly. What if there were a thousand caterpillars and only five made it to their cocoon? There would only be five butterflies. That is the only way that this world has butterflies. What if out of 4 billion people only 5 million of them trusted that Jesus is true? There would only be 5 million people that emerge from this life transformed and changed. (Although I believe the number would be much higher because I truly believe that God has a unique grace for children and if their chance to enter the cocoon was cut short they will still be transformed. Lots of caterpillars are eaten before they get a chance to transform.) We are not butterflies here in this life. We are worms that are ceasing to be worms becoming what we will be. This is the transformation.

It is very certain that if we trust You, You will show us that You are God. We will not have to read about it and how others have experienced You. You will show us personally and be that to us, because You are the same now as You have always been. I love this.

The thing about love....ok, maybe one thing.

I would have to say that most of the time, in order for love to be its best, you have to be at your worst. That is when the potency of love bubbles up and overcomes you. Love is potent when you do not feel a sense of entitlement to it. Unfortunately this is typically actualized when we are at our worst. When we are at our best and “giving” our love to someone we feel as if the same should be reciprocated. We feel as if we deserve it and are entitled to it. This creates the idea that love is something that is a reward or something that is earned. And this is how we interact and live with those that we love. This is all fine and dandy until we have one of those days where we know for a fact that we did not hold up our end of the bargain. We failed to “give” our love, we know that we failed. In our minds we believe that we are no longer entitled to “receiving” love. This is where actual love kicks in. Actual love is not based upon performance or as a compensation for labor. Actual love comes at you freely, with no strings attached. Actual love takes you at your worst and treats you as if you are at your best. This is something that is so foreign to the human soul. So foreign that in fact it is easy to want to push it away and reject it. We would rather wallow and wait until we deserve it again. This “foreigner” is persistent though and will not allow us to wallow in the mire. Why? Well, our love would never allow its subject any time wallowing, so why would someone else’s? Love comes in when we are down and picks us up. To reject it is pride. To say no, is to have no understanding regarding love actualized. When we allow it to pick us up it renews us with a sense of satisfaction. I have come to understand that this is because love satisfies. It takes us at our worst and makes us feel at our best. It will never allow us to feel unworthy of its rewards; that would be pity. Love is so much greater than pity; it heals as thorough as any medicine that can be prescribed or surgery that can be performed. It is almost a tragedy that this is the way that it must go. If we can lay all of our efforts and pride aside and allow love to do its thing I feel that we would experience something far greater than what we currently do. Love minus the entitlements is, indeed, one of the greatest most surreal things on the planet, it heals us and sets us free.

Attention my friends

For those of you that know me and love me, I have received super encouraging words and I need you to remind me of them whenever you can. The only way that I will come to know God any deeper right now is by overcoming the evil one. That is my aim in life right now, overcoming the evil one. I lost focus to where I was at, kind of discombobulated. The light is shining all around and I can see the sign, overcome the evil one, that is how you will know the one who is from the beginning, it the only way to get there. I was trying to skip it. THis is mind boggling encouraging to me, please remind me of this often if I look dazed and confused! Thanks!

The secret that I know Part III forthcoming

To the few of you that have read the first couple of these writings I wanted to let you know that there has been a slight delay in the third installment due to me getting pneumonia. As soon as the pounding headache and other unpleasantries clear up, I will continue on with the secret.

The secret that I know, Part II

Jesus the Key
There is absolutely no denying the historical existence of a man named Jesus. He is as historical as Christopher Columbus. The thing that blows me away about the man named Jesus is the impact that his life left on the world. In 2000 years it has not lost one bit of momentum. Don’t get me wrong, I am not going to say it has been pretty. Religions have formed around him and manipulated people, wars have been waged in his name, and hypocrisy and legalism have left a resounding distaste in peoples’ mouths. This in no way, shape or form reflects on who the man Jesus is and claimed to be. The reporting of his life has never changed and when you cut through all of the religious crap you find that for 2000 years the name of Jesus has perpetually changed peoples’ lives. I would like to authenticate this report. I am another one of those that have been changed. What I would like to report on, though, is what has changed. This is where I believe a major difference exists between secondhand reporting and a firsthand account. This is where holding the key and using the key are radically different. Living by faith and having faith do not even look similar. The Jesus that you have heard about and the Jesus that is in the Bible are very different. Look I know that this is very confusing and I will tell you that it takes years to work through and understand. When you enter the door it does not become a cure all and easy fix. It is anything but an easy fix. You do not magically get made perfect nor does everything go your way. That is what is so awesome about the Bible! It tells you this. It does not try and sell you some It tells you that the early followers of Jesus were imprisoned and tortured to death! That would definitely be obvious that life does not automatically get easier! Those lives were WAY easier (in an earthly sense) before encountering Jesus! These were people that left everything to follow this Jesus and some had their heads chopped off, willingly!!! They faced unknown dangers including, imprisonment, starvation, poverty and being disowned from their families and communities, but why? What was it that lead them to do this? Jesus is the key. Part II

The secret that I know

The secret that I know
There is a secret that I know. It is a secret yet every town in America knows it. It is a secret that most of the world knows yet it is still a secret. It is information that goes so deep, infiltrates so many things that if it was shouted from the rooftop it would blow the cover off of everything that we know, yet it is broadcasted everywhere. This knowledge is available to all who desire it, yet it is still restricted. Well it has come to a point that I am weary of holding it in; no longer can I remain hush-hush regarding it. It is time for me to reveal the surprise. Tied up in the entire universe, the known and unknown, is a key that unlocks the door to all its mysteries. I have discovered this key. I have this key in my possession. I, myself, have entered the door. I have entered and it is beyond my wildest dream, far deeper and more surreal than that of my most untamed hallucination. It is a world filled with power and understanding, yet what remains to be discovered is equal to that of continents of new, unchartered lands.
The key that will get you in, this classified news that is available on every city block is one word. Jesus.
This one word, this one person is the key to everything everywhere. By Him unlocks the mysteries of all living by letting you in the door of all understanding. I want to stand on my rooftop and shout at the top of my lungs; the key is Jesus. Without Him you know nothing. I will say it again, without Him you know nothing, you are a fool. (I know this because I was a fool as well) Without Him you have no chance. Without Him you have zero understanding. Without Him you are a walking zombie searching for life. Without Him you will continue to walk around as a dying man searching for a cure.
This remains a secret because many know of this key but will not open the door. Well I did and I am not going to keep it a secret any longer I am going to tell you about it and I promise not to stop telling you. I am going to write and talk everyday all day and I am going to proclaim this secret. Jesus is the answer to all things. The door that He opens is a door that you don’t even know exists. Well I am going to tell you about it. I am going to look like a lunatic, sound like a fanatic, but you know what? I am. I am head over heels, in love with this Jesus. It is high time for everyone to fully know this secret that I know. So I am going to shout it from my rooftop, I am going to write it everywhere. I want everyone that knows me to know about this door. You do not have listen to me, but I think that if you do, you will be surprised by what I have found behind this door. It is mind blowing and different than what is advertised by those that have only read reports about it. Secondhand reporting will always miss the mark. I will start by saying that it is higher than any high can get you, deeper than any sexcapade can take you, richer and more complete than money can buy you. It leads you to truth and truth sets you free. You see without this secret, you are bound. You are a slave to this world, you are in chains to everything that is ugly and broken, and you yourself are broken. This secret will open the door to freedom. Jesus came to set you free. Freedom is unlike anything you know. All you know is slavery. I will shout it if I have to but right now I am whispering in your ear, you can be free, you can be free, you can be free. I was bound. I have been set free. The key is Jesus. Part 1

The coining of a new term, "mind constipation!"

I have recently emerged from a deep fog. It is not the first time that I have been immersed in such a fog but it is the first time that I have come out of it seeing it for what it was. Ladies and Gentlemen I would like to introduce you to a new term, “mind constipation.” This is a time period in which there are many activities, thoughts, and ideas are rolling around in your mind but for some reason there is not anything coming out. Thoughts are lost, ideas never get expressed, there is no writing, no conversation, no laughter, no crying, nothing is coming out! You sit down to write, nothing, yet there are pages that want to be written. You try and have a conversation, nothing, yet long soliloquies are waiting to burst forth. A brainstorming session arises, nothing, yet it is a torrential downpour within. Just like it’s counterpart it is borderline paralyzing. It affects everything around you. Instead of hemorrhoids it produces palpitating headaches and insomnia.
I would like to happily announce that relief has finally come. I want to boldly declare it is just as satisfying as its dreadful ally it terms as relief. The words have emerged, the thoughts are flowing, and the keys are being pounded. Sleep was obtained! It feels so refreshing to be able to communicate again. The log jam of my mind will take some time to unravel itself, but that is fine. You cannot rush this sort of relief! Hopefully the byproduct will be of some value to someone rather than just being a relief in and of itself!