here in the now!

I have felt that I am on the brink of something rather large and meaningful for quite some time now. I had no idea what it was until now. My eyes are open to see it and the light shined bright enough to show me it. Seeing it fills me with a peace and joy that I have sought and knew that I would have once I found it. I must admit, finding it in this fashion was really quite unexpected. The clearness of is it is rather shocking.
Okay here's what it is. I can clearly see that I have everything in place to live the exact life that I think is the most meaningful life that I can live. In other words, I do not need the future to live the life that I want to live, I have it in the now. When I look at my life, everything is in place. This is crazy. What I have seen is that there is no greater way of living than being an upright man. What makes a man upright? When I am not thinking selfishly, I can see that there is utmost value in all human beings. Each person is just as important as myself. God loves them as much as He loves me. I really really believe that God loves me. Seeing that He loves others in the same fashion can be revolutionary and here's why. In my life, I have a wife. This wife is loved by God to the utmost, therefore in being her husband I have this tremendous opportunity to be the husband to someone greatly loved by God. The way that I treat her, lead her, comfort her, entertain her, honor and respect her will show the value of her infinite worth to God. This is a gigantic calling, and it is not in the future....it is here in the now. I have it.
The light continued shining and lit up another one of my desires. Somewhat equal but different in levels of seriousness is the role of a father on this earth. I have three children that are loved by God to the utmost. And wow....I am their dad. I have the opportunity to show them the ropes to this thing called life. Being everything that encompasses a successful dad is so daunting, yet the most exciting thing that I could ever embark on. That is what this light has shown. There is no chasing fancy things and the future for greatness. I have the opportunity to live in it on a daily basis.
I also have people in my life that I have the opportunity to show them how infinitely loved by the eternal God and show them this great honor by loving them. So the three things that I want to be: a husband, father, and friend, are here in the now. It is not some future event. It is in the now. This is the big secret. The now is where you get to experience this, to be it. I cannot find it in the past, I might be able to in the future, but I most definitely can be these things in the present. This is where all fulfillment will be found. In the now I can plant the seeds for the future, but I have to now. I can till the ground that was there (the past) and plant seeds (present) and have fruit (the future.) This is an amazing discovery for myself. It is an awakening, it is the wakeup call that I wanted. Each day has a chance to be all that I want to be. The pieces of my life are here!!!! They are even put together! It is here in the now! (I do not have time to proofread right now, sorry.) (that is for the three of you that read this and found mistakes)