love conquers a mushy mind

I have had two days of a mushy mind. A few times a year I get this crazy arthritis attack that hits most of my joints, produces some neat fevers and makes my mind a pile of mush. It is during these episodes that I sometimes wonder if my mind will be able to go back to the place it was. (that is, being able to comprehend the love of God) The answer always is.....yes, yes it can. Here's why: There is this amazing reality that no matter what my state of mind, no matter what place that I am in, no matter what I am doing, and no matter what I choose to believe: GOD is who He says that He is. He absolutely, positively never ever changes. Circumstances do not define Him. He is always right there and the second that I seek Him....HE is there. This is gigantic, He simply cannot stop being God. Not for one second. He is bigger than any circumstance. This is one of the best things that I love about Him. He is so completely loyal to Himself and to me! Even more so, He is this to everyone. He doesn't like me anymore than He likes you. He loves you and I both so stinkin' much. Once we let ourselves get entangled in this madness it will always allow our minds to go from mush and back into His presence. I am convinced that this is why we must spend lots and lots of time getting to know His perfect love. There is a confidence that it brings. When you know it, circumstances such as a mushy mind cannot separate you from Him. It always will bring you back. I am rooted in it, despite the fact that I am who I am. Take as much time as you need to know this love. If it is all that you focus on for years you will be so much farther ahead than you could be in any other fashion. I am spending years getting my kids to know my love so that for the rest of their lives they never doubt it. It is indicative to their future. It is the greatest thing that I can give them. God is a way better Father than I am, I am positive that more than anything else you could ever try doing for Him, you knowing and experiencing His love for you is far more important. Once you have that, who knows? But until you do, there is no other place to go. Today while you are sitting there, quiet yourself, and in your mind (not out loud!) ask the God of the entire universe, if He loves you. Ask in a way that you expect to hear something....listen in your mind. I know that you will hear something. He is who He says that He is. If we seek we will find.