I stopped and visited an old friend today. I really haven't spent any time with him in the last six years. We talked for a bit, updated current info, then spent a little time talking about the last six years. It is so weird to think about the last six years in a way to bring someone up to date. It is impossible to do without lots of time.
It really got me thinking about some things. I am wondering, who in the last six years knows me? Who knows the emotions, trials, victories, adventures and experiences that I have encountered over that time? Who is with me in this journey? Do I even try and share this trip? Who knows me intimately? Who am I journeying with? Am I on the road with anyone?
Well I think that I can say that my wife is high atop this incredibly short list. Dawn and I have shared many of the same highlights and low lights. This is exciting yet eye opening. I can clearly see that far too much of life is slipping by without any clear focus. Instead we are cruising through our life. Instead of exploring together we are going in circles and seeing the same stuff. I want life to be as if we are climbing a mountain together. We are together at the base and we look up and we see our task. We have the same goal. We desire the same satisfaction. We consciously, diligently, and alertly travel together. The other way is living sub consciously next to each other. You are around one another yet you can do it in a way that takes zero effort. I have ONE LIFE! One life.....one life....this is MY journey. This is MY lone attempt at life. It will be what I make it. Jesus said that some will bear fruit of 30 fold, 60 fold or 100 fold. What this means is that some are going to really wake up to the possibilities of this life. There are some that are going to realize the reality of life, of their life. They are going to tap into that reality and really experience life and the potential of it. I want my stinkin' wake up call. I see this and I want it so badly. I want the fog of my brain to lift, my eyes to see, my mind to wrap itself around this truth and my body to follow. I want to live and bear maximum fruit. I want to sow to this reality so that years from now the fruit is simply abounding off the tree. I want to journey with my wife. I want to journey with my children. I want Silas, Ella and Asher to have clear vision early to living this one life. I am so excited to the possibilities of their respective journeys! I want to climb this mountain. I no longer want to walk around it thinking it is simply a rock. I want to explore it, live it and get the most out of it that I can. What else is there to do? This is the truth as far as I see it. It is everything that Jesus taught and the magic book (bible) has tried to communicate yet it got mixed up to become a religion and not the truth. I am going to live it as the truth. I am going to be free. I am going to find the purpose of each day. It is the only one of them I will ever get. I am going to sniff out what the point of today is each day. Not live as a maniac but live as an explorer, a sojourner. I want to treat the day as a tourist rather than a resident. I want to share this adventure and travel with as many others as I can. (this is what the church should look like) In five years I want to see a cast of faces that have taken part in my purpose, and I, theirs. This requires total openness and honesty. Without it we will not be sharing with each other. The good and worst must be known to get where we are going. No masks or walls. We have to do it together. Who out there reading this wants to travel with me? (this could be hypothetical because maybe no one is reading this) We travel together but the journey is yours. We simply help one another along with it. I need help being a child, being a father, discovering the insane mysteries of being married and taking it to levels unknown, being your friend, and all of my other daily ventures. I need travelers who want the unknown, who want to go to uncharted territory. Many have traveled there but there are no maps. I need those that will push, pull and carry me when needed. This is what I want. This what I see life and the church as. I love the magic book but I love its reality even more. I do not want the book, I want the adventure that it starts and leads you on. No more blurs of unconscious living. No more venturing alone. I cannot get to where I want to go without help. It is simply too chaotic and crazy of a climb to get where I want to go. Who wants to travel together? I am counting my wife in kids in as a given, but I need others that want to live as if on purpose?
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